Because it happened already

Realized a truth

Years later it may be.
Now I understand it better,

What happened in the past.

No matter how much

One tries to make up for it

For their actions, words said

It can do nothing to change

Because it happened already.

No matter how many times

You punch the wall,

How many drinks you have trying

To get over it

Changes nothing

Because it happened already.

Memories remain

Bad ones giving tears

Good ones making smile

What doesn’t remain is whats gone.

Dear ones lost, feelings changed

In the bitter taste of reality,

Under the shadow of truth.

Because it happened already.

Each of us is different

And have different ways to deal

With hurt and regrets

Some resist it passively

Some live with it without

Letting known but one thing common

Doesn’t make feel anything better

Because it happened already.
Each night In my head

I ask myself how do I rekindle

How do I at least take myself

Away from painful reality.

Ever so helpless

No one cares whats happening

Inside me, the raging storm

Takes my life slowly each night.

And my past falls on me like skybreak

Each night I shatter a little bit more.

Unable to forget, unable to forgive myself.

Past dawns like a nightmare

I want my old life back

Happy I want to be.

Life is a shining piece of crap.

Because it happened already.