#07 Pinch of salt

Hello, missed me? I sure did, after hectic peak season and see saw shifts I finally found time to write, my dear blog, where else would I go without you? Twitter? Nobody takes it seriously, facebook? People pour out their emotions and others feast on them, whatsapp? its for sharing jokes and rarely fruitful communication, Viber? not many has it. Blog? Oh sure :) Always there, my canvas, my story and thus this is my entry #07

Pinch of salt, by definition listed on phrases.org.uk means to accept it but to maintain a degree of skepticism about its truth. I wish to apply this idiom. to everyday thinking and If we could apply this idiom we could end up being less disappointed.

Everyday we live in our perfect thoughts, we begin the day by assuming it will be perfect and everything we planned for will go accordingly and often we wish for something exciting, which is a positive thing of course then we face conflicts, somewhere or the other we accept compromise and say its okay, this is life! but what about other places or times? For example if you do everything right in typing an application letter, you double check and even get it checked by others and despite of everything your application is rejected, disappointing? Of course, you know you were correct and yet it didn't turn out. take it with a pinch of salt.

Applies to everyday relationships as well, a couple is happy, say madly in love and the guy does everything right for the girl, wishes her in the morning, meets, gets flowers and then she instead of reciprocating just keeps mum. Salt, do I need to remind?

The underlying ideology is everyone reacts to a situation as per their own mood, irrespective of how you feel, its up-to you to decide whether to accommodate the mis happening or modify it. The human brain works on effort-reward principle. We think of the end result before doing anything.

If life becomes perfect there won`t be any space left for it to be complete, two colors make a picture, seven make a rainbow and sixteen million are in this screen which you are reading from. Would you be able to read it if it was just black?

Leave some space for error, give them the benefit of doubt, of course nothing unpleasant happens by choice. and this is where i say, take it with a pinch of salt.

Great to be back, stay alive, stay awesome.

love,

SAiSH

#04 Reboot without restart

Reboot? Restart? You are probably wondering why I have suddenly started writing on technical stuff. Well no, nothing like that. I got a call in the evening and the person on the other side made me introspect. Conversation lasted for half an hour, can you believe, an absolute stranger calls you up one fine evening and you start looking within yourself. But it happened.

To begin with, since I started living with my parents since I turned 10, life hasn't been easy going for me, till now. You might react saying whose life is easy? Everyone has problems. Nobody showcases. I am saying Lets say my life had some unexpected transitions. From Konkani Medium primary school to English medium secondary. Comfort of grandma`s place to new environment of my parents place. New city. To idea of joining vocational training in Frankfinn Institute and then entering work life at the age of 19. Not everybody goes through all this. Do they?

Coming back to introspection. It had mainly been about whats been bothering me. The way she had walked away was completely unexpected. I had myself felt I did nothing wrong. I was only shown something that I wasn't aware of during introspection and it actually made sense. Somehow those words cleared the air I had between her and me. One more call and I had my smile back. Her voice subtle as her usual self. Few things said and i had my too much in my life. As shockingly she had stepped out, she entered back. Awesome surprise.

One thing though I tell you. One must learn to adjust for any relationship to go on. You cant control someone, you cant clap with one hand. Talk but listening is equally important. Express but also understand. Love doesn't happen again and again in the exact same way. Let your ego stand way aside. Soul mates are meant for support,care, nurture and most importantly affection. Someone you share every moment of your life with. Someone you accept with all their shortcomings, someone accepting you for yours. While Unconditional love is only seen in films. Love is something essential for us humans, like oxygen, like food. Our brain feeds on thoughts and love is a vital catalyst for those to be good.

About this pic, I was 13 at that time and dad had brought the very first digicam. a 6 megapixel Sony S600. One of the childhood memories. My first delight. For photography is my passion now. While it may be past 14th November in India, I want to wish people in the other parts of the world. A very happy children's day. A child is always in us says psychology. Let that child come out. Aakhir me dil toh baccha hai ji.

I cant express my happiness in words. Its like a dream come true. Happiness has no measurement. A new beginning has begun. One with reboot without restart. We let go of what held us back. Started afresh without going off totally. Staying positive and hoping for the best.

Koi bigaadta hai kuch,
Toh banata bhi hai.
Kabhi aansu tohfe me deta hai,
Toh hasi ki chuskiyan bhi pilata hai.
Zindagi hai tere mere naam ki ab.
Saath rehna hai sada, dekhte hai koi kya bigaad paata hai.

Change is Good

So the change in address and change in blog name, what does it mean? Why did a poetwithinme became lifeofsaish? Are the questions I am sure you are having on your mind. Let me answer that. Thats because language is meant to deliver authors thought to the mind of the reader without any proper form, poetry for example here, will be posted alongside thoughts. I wish to thank Acchu for being there for me in the bitter times I have been going through recently. So lets begin.

To the girl whose presence makes my heart beat

Magic till now I had only seen
In the movies and in my dreams
Then you enter my life suddenly
and life seems like a fantasy really
yet its not, we are real.
May be it is the gods will.
Amongst darkness I was surrounded
Dream as though it all sounded.
My breaths until I found you, were only mine,
With yours together they got definition fine.
Since I was a kid I tell you, never felt like this,
Being around you, being yours, being heard touched, nothing I wanna miss.
Peace in your presence around
I found my world in you.
Not a promise of forever this
You are where my happiness is.
I dont need to tell how really i feel,
Just look into my eyes and see it for real.
Love you Too much

Dedicated to Snigdha- and a new start

Life gives surprises

Found out it is so

Opened my facebook

And to my awe

A request appeared on screen

Long time since its been

Curiously enough I glanced

Into her profile

Seemed nice i realised

She looked fine

But i wondered how

Our two fates are intertwined

Said hello

And conversation went on

Couldnt stop myself

I wanted to hold on

Dedicated a song

And it made her giggle

Just as then

My emotions began to wiggle

Eyes opened to her hello
replied sweet with my breath mellow
One more surprise was
to come and make my day
even though the lazy person in me
on bed wanted to stay.
Asked about skype
Gave my id quick
For I wanted to know her
and turned on the laptop, in a flick.
Hesitant initially, slowly her cam i saw
it wasnt the reaction she anticipated
in my mind I was in awe
Said I smile a lot
thats my nature
For i am a happy go lucky
a jolly fun creature.
Curious expressions
I wondered whats on her mind
as she wanted to unearth my story
asked for a short rewind
Opened my heart
as if it were a book
even so she wanted to know
every cranny every nook.
Time wasnt enough
and she went to sleep
just time about.
Feels good
Made me smile
Thousand thank yous to
you dear
we will stay for a long while.

Here I keep walking,,,,

Transient life, why can’t my mind be
last few years a cacophony of tears and smiles,
here I stand at the no man’s land
neither sad nor happy.
So easy for the humans to move on
to adjust with needs, with others. Not me
Do you recognize me
will you tomorrow?
I have a heart and I know it beats,
Growing older day, unknown of its purpose.
Lost in the crowd,
Sick of lies around.
what do I do
have to go on,
Not aware of my path,
not familiar with hurdles.
Blind as a bat,
listening to hearts echo.
Though not completely alone,
She has her eyes on my path
and holds my hand so that I don’t fall.
Grateful to her.
And thus towards a destination unknown
here I keep walking..

A wiff from the past

What magic you did on my heart,
Year seems like a decade had gone apart.

Sometimes it seems like yesterday we spent together,
And sometimes like as if it’s been forever.

In my sleep, I can feel you in my dreams,
When I open my eyes it seems so real.

Then I realize no more you are a part-of my life,
That have you have pushed me away, alone.

Just can’t accept anyone else now,
My heart though its broken, is still with you.

Its happening and...

Its happening and it is strange,
I cant find words to express myself today.


True, may be I am in some kind of pain,
Not knowing which, has created this thing.

True, may be I am hurt by someone,
Not knowing whom, has made me wonder.

I am thinking how, that the world is beautiful
But my life isn’t ?

I am thinking how, that people enjoy life
But I don’t.

Nice it is, to give excuse and move on,
To bury the reality and be calm.

Nice it is, to give to give excuse and move on,
To be lazy and sleep like a log.

They say times change but is that really true?
I have seen people dying waiting for that change.

They say times change but is that really true?
I have been waiting for three years and noting yet happened.

And I realized one fact
May be by insight,
To live as long as my heart beats.

And I realized one fact,
May be by insight,
To keep myself moving never mind
What pain and joy life gives.

And yes I realized…..

April 20th 2010